Several Hours of "Normal Life" With My Wife in the Afterlife

This past Sunday night/Monday morning, I had an experience with my wife, who died in early 2017, that I've never experienced before. As long-time readers of this site know, I've had a lot of experiences with her in the past 8 years, including a couple of astral projection meet-ups in the astral/afterlife. I've also had a few dream visitations and many regular dream experiences with her.

I had this half-dreamlike, half "regular waking" experience with her, and it lasted all night long. It got interrupted temporarily when I woke up to go use the restroom, but I was right back in it when I fell back asleep.

The "dream-like" part of the experience was that I was not fully lucid, not "fully aware," so to speak. The dream world was kind of low-resolution, like it wasn't fully registering even up to what I normally experience in dreams, like everything was a little muffled and behind a filter of some sort. The non-dream aspect was that everything that occurred in the dream was just like a normal world. No weird dream stuff, no scene cutting to another scene, and it didn't produce that kind of weird "dream feeling" during or after, when I woke up. Like a dream, I didn't remember much in terms of specific events, except one thing that happened just before I woke up in the middle of the night to use the restroom.

During the dream, my wife had gone outside of the house I spent the entire dream in to do something. Apparently, her going outside (the only time that happened during the dream) triggered my memory of her dying. I was surprised, shocked and had trouble making sense of this whole set of memories of her dying and my emotional collapse into grief and despair.

I remember thinking, in the dream, "wait, did this really happen? Yes ... it really happened! I remember all of this. I know it happened. What the heck is going on? She's been with me all day and she just went outside. She's been with me all this time and never died, but I'm remembering when she died. It was awful."

Then I thought, "It must have somehow gotten reset. The whole timeline must have been reset to one where she didn't die!"

That's about the time I woke up in the middle of the night. When I went back to sleep and the dream continued, I was back in the same place with her, but I didn't remember, in the dream, about her dying or the thought of a timeline reset.

After I woke up, though, I clearly remembered that part of the dream. I realized I had a "mac and cheese" experience (which I explained once in an interview here; link starts you just before I got into that part of the interview.) A "gourmet mac and cheese experience" means that we have experiences in this world that we carry with us to the afterlife and these experiences deeply enrich our experiences there.

IMO, what more likely was happening was that while I was asleep, my veiled consciousness actually crossed over into my astral body and was experiencing our "normal life" there from a veiled consciousness perspective, but her leaving the house there temporarily triggered the memory of her dying so that I held both things in my mind there at the same time - being with her in the present, there, and of her dying and how it felt to me when that happened here.